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September 14 wasting timeWell here I am again. Finally !!! Like always, wasting time. It's not like I have a Geology Quiz to take, or an English essay to write right?? Anyways, life has been ok. I mean I'm pretty much happy. We are all heakthy, and that's very important to me. I think too much about death, andI shouldn't, but I can't help it. I always think what if. That is wh I don't like to stay mad at nobody. I may bitch a while, but Then I get over it. Well Juliet has a new babysitter since August. It's her aunt (Robert's cousin). She likes it. She cried the first week every day, but she doesn't anymore. Now she stays really happy. THANK GOD !! I hated it when she cried and stretched her little arms out to me. It broke my heart, literally. I think lke twice I cried on my way to work, because I was soooo sad, because Juliet was sad. And it makes me feel like a bad mom. Like if she is going to hate me for leaving her. In reality, she will probably barely even remember. She just turned 2, but I can't help feeling horrible. I always think if I am doing the right thing. I hope I am. I hope they understand that everything I do is fro them to have a better life, and better opportunities than I ever had. Plus if I want them to be succesful in life, I have to set teh example. I can't be sitting on my fat ass all day watching Jerry Springer, and them expect them to go to college and stuff. I just don't think it works that way. I want to provide them with all the support they need to grow up to be responsible people. More than anything I want them to be happy, and I want them to know I love them. Jazmine did excellent on her first day of 2nd grade. Her daddy took her and she did not even cry. She never cries in school. She is such a good girl. Not just because she is my daughter, but seriously. She is so obidient, sweet, and respectful even at school. Her teachers always have good things to say about her. I hope it s tays that way. Maybe it will. Maybe she just has that kind of personality where she is just a nice person. I hope so, but I also hope she learns not to be too nice. But everything with time. The time will come to teach her everything. I judt hope I can be by them. As long as I am with them, I will do everything I can to make them happy. Ok I'm kinda rambling so I guess I'll stop for today. Oh Destyni came over. Jazmine started CCD Wednesday, she will do her 1st communion in April. FINALLY, and I went ot her open house already. Juliet says "no quiero" when she doesn't want ot do something. Her spanish is really good. No more bottle for her since a few days after my birthday. She left it all on her own after I bought her some Dora sippy cups. I guess that was her birthday present to me. January 01 Cuando Se Pierde Un AmorAventura... Cuando se pierde un amor, When you lose your love ... El cielo azul cambia a gris, lo blanco a negro. When you lose your love Solamente una vez se ama en la vida.... Te lo dice Romeo Cuando se pierde un amor, When you lose your love, ... Veras el sol sin claridad, cambia la ciencia. When you lose your love...The pression takes away your heart When you lose your loooooooove... Mas AventuraWe know we´re not supposed to be doin´this,right?
No estamos supuestos hacer esto
This is a sin , Esto es un pecado
We are both going to hell, Vamos pa´el infierno
Fuck it
Quitate la ropa lentamente quiero amanecer contigo(quiero amanecer contigo)
Y cuidado si sospechan los vecinos , mi mujer o tu marido (mi mujer o tu marido)
Oh oh oh
Tu y yo durmiendo con los enemigos
Dos seres ke jamas hemos kerido
Los dos saciando un bendito capricho
Donde somos masokistas por no volver a nuestros nidos
Desnudate al paso mi reina y solo amame
Que el secreto permanezca en un cuarto de hotel
Te aseguro k esos tontos no van a entender ke si lesomos infieles es por un gran kerer
Asi con cautela despacio solo amame
Ke si nos coje la noche yo me inventare
Una excusa bien tramada ella me lo cree
Y tu di otra mentirita al idiota akel
Quitate la ropa lentamente kiero amanecer contigo (kiero amanecer contigo)
Y cuidado si sospechan los vecinos, mi mujer,o tu marido (mi mujer o tu marido )
Que nos perdone nuestro divino señor si cometemos un delito(cometemos un delito)
Pero Adan y Eva pecaron por tentacion tu y yo no somos distintos
Que traviesos somos
Y ke lindos se siente!!!
I´m a bad boy
Desnudate al paso mi reina y solo amame
Que el secreto permanezca en un cuarto de hotel
Te aseguro k esos tontos no van a entender ke si lesomos infieles es por un gran kerer
Asi con cautela despacio solo amame
Que si nos coje la noche yo m inventare
Una excusa , una mentira ella me lo cree
Y tu di otre mentirita al idiota akel
Quitate la ropa lentamente kiero amanecer contigo (kiero amanecer contigo)
Y cuidado si sospechan los vecinos, mi mujer,o tu marido(mi mujer o tu marido )
Que nos perdone nuestro señor divino si cometemos un delito(cometemos un delito)
Pero Adan y Eva pecaron por tentacion tu y yo no somos distintos
you know...Aventura
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October 08 Se FueYa no responde ni el teléfono, pende de un hilo la esperanza mía, yo no creí jamás poder perder así la cabeza por él. Por que de pronto ya no me quería, porque mi vida se quedó vacía, nadie contesta mis preguntas, porque nada me queda sin él. Se fue, se fué, el perfume de sus cabellos, Se fue, el murmullo de sus silencios, Se fue, su sonrisa de fábula, Se fue, la dulce miel que probé en sus labios. Se fue, me quedó sólo su veneno, Se fue, y mi amor se cubrió de hielo, Se fue, y la vida con él se me fue, Se fue, y desde entonces ya sólo tengo lágrimas. Encadenada a noches de locura, hasta a la cárcel yo iría con él , toda una vida no basta sin él. En mi verano ya no sale el sol, con su tormenta todo destruyó, rompiendo en mil pedazos esos sueños que construímos ayer. Se fue, se fue me, quedó sólo su veneno, Se fue, y mi amor se cubrió de hielo, Se fue, y la vida con él se me fue, Se fue, y la razón no la sé. Si existe Dios, debe acordarse de mí, aunque sé... que entre él y yo el cielo tiene sólo nubes negras, le rogaré, le buscaré, lo juro... le encontraré, aunque tuviera que buscar en un millón de estrellas. En esta vida oscura, absurda sin él siento que... se ha convertido en centro y fin de todo mi universo, si tiene límite el amor, lo pasaría por él, y en el vacío inmenso de mis noches yo le siento. Le amaré, como le pude amar la vez primera, que un beso suyo era una vida entera, sintiendo como me pierdo por él…
September 17 Memoirs of a GeishaI finished the book quicker than I thought. It was good. Better than the movie. The movie seemed to go too fast and I didn't understand it as well as I did the book. Lots of detail was missing. At least I got to see what they supposedly look like. JULIET STARTED WALKING !!!!! She started walking on August 24, 2006. It was a sunny, hot Thursday. She started walking at her grandma's house. Then whe nI came home from work to pick her up, she was taking little steps on the trampoline./ I was so proud, I clapped for her and told her how much I loved her. And then I kissed her about 1000 times, and she just laughed and laughed. May princess Jazmine started girl scouts again. She loves it because she has lots of fun. This year she is a Brownie, so she gets to start selling cookies and going on trips. She also took her first AR test and made an 80. I am very proud of her too, because she does excellent in school, and she never gets in trouble. She is just perfect. Like her little sister ..PERFECT!!!!! I still like my job. My music class is kinda hard , but I think I can passit. I"m suer I will pass it. That and the Geography one, which I find kinda interesting. I finished my car finally !! I picked up my title on Friday. Well I guess I'ma go now...I'm soooooooooo sleepy !!!!!!!! August 25 SunsetMe again. I've been so sleepy these past 2 weeks, it's ridiculous. I guess I wasn't used to getting up @ 6 in the morning, when it is still dark outside. But I like my job, so it's ok. Any way enough about that. Sunday was my birthday. It was good. I am happy. We went to a concert, but it was soooo HOt. I thought I was gonna die out there in that heat. It wwas 98*F, and with so many people, you can imagine how it felt. We just stayed long enough to see Julieta Venegas, cuz that's who we really went to see. Mostly cuz of Jazmine. She loves her and sings all the songs. All Juliet did was eat ice cream. Oh by the way. I am SOOOO happy, cuz my little Juli finally started walking on her own yesterday at her Grandma's house. She takes only like 3 or 4 steps, but I am so proud of her. She gets all excited cuz I clap for her, so then she starts trying to laugh and dance. Then she falls.
It was Jazmine's school's open house last night, and I went with her. Of course Juli went too, and was on her worst behavior. She wanted to crawl around all the classrooms and play with everything she could get her hands on. I had to try my best to keep her busy and off the floor. But she is soooo heavy ! Jazmine, of course, is doing excellent in all her classes. Especially music, oh how she loves music. Last year she won a medal for being the best music student in kindergarten. I was so surprised and proud of her, cuz I thought she was like all shy at school. But I guess I was wrong. Or maybe it's just that she enjoys it so much that she forgets about being shy. She is the best though. Because she has been very good at everything she does, and has never given me any problems. At least not so far. I love my little princess. And also my little angel Juli.
It's very very hot these days. I want it to rain so bad. But really rain. I love it when it rains, but really hard. When it gets all dark and it thunders. Maybe cuz my girls get scared and just want to be close to me. It feels like we're hiding from someone. Yesterday when I came home I took a picture of the sunset in fromt of our house. It just looked so beautiful. And I told myself, i had never noticed before how beautiful it looked. I can't belive I had never photographed it. Also when I was driving home I saw the most beautiful cloud in the sky. It was just perfect. I wanted to be able to touch it. So I took a picture of it too.
Isn't it funny how you learn all the bad kids names first, and the good ones sometimes just kinda blend in ? I'm trying to avoid that.
 August 07 1st day of school for meToday I finally started my job. If that's what you can call it. All we did all day was listen to this guy talk and talk and talk. Some of the things he said were interesting, but at times I would just completely tune him out without realizing it. Then when I did, I would feel kind of bad for not paying attention. Like if I had missed ot on something important. But then I looked around and saw another lady flipping through a magazine, and still another one reading a book, while the person next to me wrote in her planner. So then I didn't feel so bad anymore. Today was like an orientation type thing, welcoming everyone back to the new school year, and introducing the new faculty members. I was so embarrassed, because I was not prepared for that part. I'm the new Bilingual Inclusion Aide for the Jr. High 7th graders, so of course, I had to go up front when they called my name along with all the other new teachers. Tomorrow we finally get to go to our actual campus (school), and then I can really feel like I'm at work. Or maybe it won't feel like work either until the students come back next Monday? Who knows. Maybe it will never feel like work, because I'll like it so much? I hope I do. So far everything seems to be going perfect. Guess who is going to be my superviser?My college Algebra instructor. I was so happy to find that out, because I had no idea it would be her. She is super nice and I think I will really enjoy working with her, to help the kids who don't know English. I know what that feels like, because when I started school the only word in English that I knew was water.
 We had been sitting at the same table all day, but it wasn't until the afternoon that we found this out. The prinicipal went over to our table to introduce us and tell us. Of course no introdcution was needed, because we already knew each other. By the way she is a great teacher. With her I learned a lot. I had her for beginning algebra and I made a B, then I had her for Intermediate algebra and I made an A. For lunch I went to eat at one of my best friends since 4-ever mom's restaurant. I saw her little boy there, because his grandma was babysitting him, and we just had a long, grown up conversation all lunch long. jajaja...yeah right, He was telling me that he was working there, but that he got fired. He's only 4. But he's so cute and sweet to everybody. He's going to be a good person when he grows up. You can tell. I missed by babies so much during lunch. I wish I could drive all the way to my moms to go see them, but it's too far and I don't have enough time. But I know they are happy because they LOVE being with my mom.
On my way home after work, while I was in my car just thinking about nothing and everything, I realized how much I love my mom, and how important she is to me. Without her I would be nothing. She has been my everything, as in my mom and dad. That's why I do everything I can to help her in whatever I can. Sometimes I wish I could do more for her, but I can't. I have my own family now. I'm just so grateful to her for keeping us here in Texas, even when she was left alone here. THANK YOU mom for not taking us back to Mexico!!!! I would probably not have an education like I do now. I've told her already. Plus, because she refused to speak to us in English, now I speak, read, and write perfect Spanish. That, and my degree, got me my job.
Anyways I'm bored of typing, and I have things to do so I guess I'll go. I had never written anything personal in here, because I felt, I don't know. Embarrassed, that anyone could read my thoughts. But I don't care anymore, because I don't think anybody else cares, so why should I? Anyways who would like reading this . It's kind of boring, but to me it's going to be like my journal. Because my handwriting is terrible. Typing is faster and neater.
Reminder to self : My library books are so over due! I need to take them back already!!!!
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